Recognizing old thought patterns.

I have been living in my head for awhile now.  Trying to figure out what emotional energy my body is holding and how I can shift it.  Old belief systems and thought patterns can hold us in an emotional vortex, swirling around and around and around.  I have been learning quite a bit about old belief systems I’m holding and where they are coming from.  And yes, trying to think myself out of them.  Sometimes it works, and sometimes it just creates more negative energy.  Law of Attraction says…what we put out is what we get back.  So if I am stuck in that holding pattern of worry, frustration, anger, resentment… guess what is going to come back in?  And the more attention I put on something the bigger it’s going to get.  I got so caught up in MY stuff, I forgot to step back and look at the big picture.  I forgot that it is only up to me to decide to look at things differently.  Each and every one of us has “OUR SIDE” of the story.  Each and every one of us feels our own feelings and they can’t be wrong, they’re ours to feel.  But if I stay stuck in my stuff, I won’t be able to look at anyone else’s, and I won’t be able to look at the big picture.  I have found understanding only happens when I can step back, and look at the other person and imagine what they might possibly be feeling.  By putting myself in their shoes so to speak, and letting go of my side of the story, allows me to see the big picture. 

I found myself going into old thought patterns this weekend.  What we usually do is base future events on past experiences.  In the past…when ever we had to do…. blah blah blah… this always happened!  So I found myself holding resistance and anger and frustration BEFORE anything was done.  Not thinking about the other side, just mine.  Pre-paving more anger and frustration.  I wasn`t speaking my truth… but I was also stuck in a negative thought pattern based on the past.  All of that negative energy stuck in my throat… and I got a sore throat.  The interesting thing is this… even though all of the feelings I was experiencing were mine, they were based on experiences from the PAST…being projected into something that hadn`t happened yet.  It`s pretty easy to guess how things are going to go if we go into something with negative feelings.  Here was my AHA this morning.  Letting go of the way “I think things should be done” is a gift of freedom for ME.  Pre-paving an event with good energy and a positive outcome is beneficial not only for me… but for whoever else is involved.  I forgot WE HAVE A CHOICE! We get to choose how we look at things, how we want to feel about things.  So this morning, I am choosing to think positive thoughts.  To live in gratitude and appreciation for those around me and the blessings in my life.  I am choosing to live in today, not tomorrow or the next day.  I am choosing to trust, allow and let go.